lukewarm

Maybe the reason we don’t know who we are
is because
we need to test ourselves
like a litmus for pH.

Or, if we are lukewarm water,
we cannot tell the end
or the beginning of ourselves
unless the edge is hot or cold.

Neutral. Lukewarm.
This is what I am.
no passion, no desires,
nobody calls on me.

But it is this space
that I find my freedoms.

No hands catch me at night
but the bones of my own,

At times, my skin is gray
when I wish for change.
I am alive.
This is my abyss.

I think here, I embrace the smile.
I am just one dragonfly
in this peaceful
lukewarm space.